At least it’s not January anymore. Can we all agree that January is the worst? It’s cold, dark, and we don’t even have any holidays to distract us. Combine that with the omicron surge, and well, it’s been a bit of a downer.
(I will caveat that and say that summers are also hard for me as a mom. Last summer felt particularly long and hard as I waited for full-time school to resume for the first time in a year and a half. Summer school should be a regular thing, especially after all the school that kids missed out on during the pandemic.)
I was actually feeling pretty good for a good portion of January, but then something shifted and I felt exhausted and overwhelmed. What changed?
- I had been starting my mornings with 5 minutes of meditation and I stopped to accommodate some longer yoga sessions I’ve been doing in the mornings. So, I’ve been getting more exercise — but could the meditation really have been so significant that it’s altering my mood throughout the day? Something to consider.
- Getting fixated on negative self-talk and worry loops. For one thing, I allowed myself to get caught up in worries about my children’s current lack of participation in sports. Despite the fact that I don’t even like sports, I think I have a perception that a good mom has kids who are involved in sports and other extracurriculars. I have reminded myself that it seems valid at this time (due to covid) to not be participating in extracurriculars.
- Reality not meeting my expectations. I think for one thing, I had hoped that my kids getting fully vaccinated in December would lead to much more freedom from the pandemic for our family. Due to omicron, this has not been the case, although certainly I feel less concerned about the pandemic than I probably would otherwise. But really, my kids got vaccinated and then the pandemic got worse and things felt more restricted than they had been.
So, it’s been a hard month. Who knows what’s coming down the pike, but at least January is over and the omicron surge is receding. I’m looking forward to the days getting longer as we head closer to spring! I’m also trying to focus more on gratitude, as this helps me get unstuck from negative thinking patterns.
I am thankful for the sunny weekend we just had and some good hikes I’ve gotten in during the past month. I am thankful for the crocuses I’ve seen starting to pop up, and the walk I had with a friend yesterday. I’m thankful for my kids and the “date night” table the set for my husband and I last night, next to our fire pit.
What is something that you are looking forward to?